Determined to enjoy myself, I would dance closer to her. I would not be aggressive. I would be friendly, warm and sensitive like how I imagined her other dance partners were treating her.
When I arrived, she’d already established herself in the corner of the dance floor she normally danced in. Though I’d stayed away from her corner since that first night, tonight I ventured as nonchalantly towards her as I was able. I got close, but didn’t lean in towards her like the first time. I smiled at her and kind of tried to dance with her.
It worked. She smiled back. But that’s all she did. She made no move towards me. Nor did she encourage me to make more contact. But I hadn’t thought of what to do once I’d made contact. She was off quickly, dancing dramatically with one of regular partner buddies, leaving me grinning widely with little to show for it but a wisp of connection.
I drove home disappointed once again, not only because I had so little to show for my efforts, but because I didn't know what else to do. Yet, my attraction towards her didn’t dissipate. That’s when I wondered if a recent experience in my aikido class might offer an approach that I’d never “thought” of before. [Aikido is a martial art that not only teaches self-protection, but also the loving protection of your attacker.]
Sunday, March 23, 2008
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